I wish I was Tom Cruise at Edge of Tomorrow that I can restart my day when everything goes wrong by killing myself. I wish. Because I have no idea how many times I feel like I just wanna buried myself at the ground when I hate myself. Actually I also hate it when people look at me like perfection–I mean like I’m the one who never do sins because when I told em my old (black) story they were like ‘ah, you did it? i can’t believe it’ Well I am not an angel, you know. It only God hide my disgrace.